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This has become frustrating. All the placements blues have turned from darkness to depressing. The sudden wave of companies has hit my normal peaceful and productive life and has completely destroyed it. All I do now is sit at home, checking my gmail, trying to study C and trying to figure out why I couldn't make it to the last company.

My Dad told me yesterday, that "tumharey pair do naav par hain" (You are stuck between two sides.) By which he meant that I, although doing my undergrad in Electronics, am trying for a software job. For the later, I have bleak chances, as I'll be competing with the best-in-class COE/IT comrades. Many of whom I know and are very good friends of mine. The reason my conscience tells me: that I dont have interest in electronics, and I always have been inclined to computers. Am a bit of coder too. This feels like.. I cannot conceive a term; like an alien world; like a dead walk; like numb; like I am drowning. Competitions scare me. I'll always been more productive in a non-competitive environment.

So, one thing I have realized, it requires both skill and luck to make it across. I've sat for two companies so far. Adobe and Directi; both of them A++ grade companies and offering very promising pay packages. I couldn't get through in either. Lack of skill is definitely one reason, I need to work on that. I need some luck too. Next up is Winshuttle. Let's see.

Hope the depression does not take away the best from within me.