drupal drupal druuuuupaall

yes, this is THE drupal song. Its a maniacal song, kinda echoes around my head randomly. FUCK

So am back on the same spot, where I found myself some months ago. DRUPAL COMMONS.
The installation is a HEADACHE. To beginners at least.
I don't know why udit chose it over simple drupal :-@

notepad

notepad indeed seems to be useful.

the main advantage is that, when copying text from a website or a word document, the format is not copied. so if i select and copy text from a website and paste it in microsoft word or any other sophisticated editor (the pathetic joomla editor for example), the color of the text is also copied. this becomes a headache when editing the content or combining content from different sources. this is where notepad comes in handy. it reads text is some basic format. (ascii most probably, am not sure)both while copying from and copying into.

I never realized this before. I thought notepad was just a useless windows application, which no one ever uses. So yeah, advanced editors exist, but notepad is irreplacable (or the basic editors that come in other OSs)

shifting opinions

Just wound off a very busy day. Was running all the time. Too tired.

I used to hate this song 'emptiness' by that guy Rohan Rathore, who got famous like wildfire and was the country wide heartthrob in no time. I used to hate it for many reasons: ranjeet likes it, hums it around all day; my gf likes it, she likes lany things that depress me, emotional songs and stuff. They depress me. But it's the female stereotype or on second thoughts, may be it generic. Emotions are integral to humans anyway. Am an exception may be. Or a rare person on those lines. Emotions depress me, because I cannot feel them.

But right now, I seem to like this song. I have it playing in the background and it sounds soothing. The music calms me, the voice seems lucid and calming. Things change so fast. Or may be am living too quickly.

better

Today's test was thankfully better. At least I was able to cross the shit!-I-know-only-one-question barrier! Antennas hmm! But that was because I was somehow able to overcome the masochist me and my restless brain. Thankfully! :)

Hoping to do the same ahead. But again my inabilities seem unending. Some people, whom when I meet, I feel lowly in comparison. I can't talk like they do or behave as light-heartedly as they do. Or may be I think too much. Or may be I am looking up to the wrong people. I need some enlightenment on whether the goals that I am targeting are meaningful in my context or is it just the insecure me overreacting and knowingly holding my confidence captive and giving me more reasons to judge myself on the negative side.

And by the way, these songs that I am listening to are pretty provocative emotionally. They go well with a thought train. Cool.

Bad Day

Since the last two days, things have been unfavorable for me. First the disappointment at Directi. Then the bad performance in exam. Plus the bad health. And today the hostel issue.

That guy (I forgot his name again, fuck, what's wrong with my brain), the care taker called me up to ask rhetorical questions about my absence from the hostel. Then he asked me to meet up and told me I was supposed to submit the hostel fees, although I haven't taken it up. What the FUCK. My exams starts in 20 minutes and you are threatening me for the hostel fees.

Finally I met up with him and after much begging could not convince him that this wasn't my fault. I didn't submit the fees as I had no intention of taking up the hostel. But his point was that in such a case, I should've submitted a cancellation application. And that the fees till now was due and had to be submitted to avoid further penalty. Damn it.

Had to run around the campus a lot, from hostel to bank and talk to jagbir and all his gang of government employees aka assholes. It made a bad impression. I've been in much opinion that my reputation has been on the decline ever since I took up Innovision. I feel scared walking in the campus now. Talking to people is a nightmare. My confidence is on an all time low. Shit. It feels bad.